HELLO EVERYONE ! <3
These are some topics I want to make more common, accepted, respected and popular in this world:
1. the importance of MENTAL HEALTH,
which means, getting rid of wrong, toxic and unhealthy values to be free for focusing on the RIGHT VALUES. Also, to learn how to REDUCE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS on a daily basis and to replace them with positive, healthy and simply beautiful ones. How to overcome depression, fears, doubts and anxiety is also something, I want to keep my voice up for, because I can only imagine how many people suffer in silence with all these problems, because they feel ashamed and are too afraid that society might reject them. Another thing, I wanna fight for is the reduction of societies pressure in relation to our bodies, but also in relation to our chosen way of living. Everyone should be respected for their individual choice of how they wanna life their lifes!
I experienced it myself how people judge me, because I did not want to finish my engineering and economics studies. Every single time I told "them", that I have different plans, that I wanna become someone who changes the world, working as an actress, a writer, role-model and speaker, people laughed about me and shaked their heads. "You are so smart Jenni, why are you waisting your intelligence and youth for something impossible?". I struggled six years with all the rejection until I took my head up and started to answer like this: "Because only the people who are crazy enoug to think they can create a change, are the ones who will actually do it!".
And I know, that I made it even harder for me to be heard or seen, since the day I deleated all my social media accounts. But you know what? I truly believe in hard work, discipline, faith and patience. I think, that if you really want it, you will get it. And the reason why I decided to deleate it all, was because I dealt with all the things I mentioned below and the only way to heal myself and to find that inner strength you need to succeed was, to let go. And now, one and a half year later, I understand why I had to do it and trust me, I was so addicted to it, that I was not realizing what I was missing the most: my REAL life and inner connection to my own self, because I put all of my thoughts into Instagram, taking pictures, using filters, that even if I was in a restaurant with friends, I was only thinking about conversations or other people´s lifes from social media. (I do not think that everyone is like that and I also truly believe that social media can have a huge positive impact to this world. For me, personally, it was toxic and I was not able to use it the way it should be used for.) . You can believe me when I tell you, that a hundred people already told me, that I will never make it without creating an instagram account again. And two times back in the past, I got insecure and created an account and every time I felt back into my bad habits and got sick even though I loved to support others via social media, but I truly believe that there is a way for me in this world where I will be seen, heard and able to support without managing my own account. And even if no one ever understood, how I can love to perform, act and model infront of a camera and still not being able to manage a healthy social media balance, I stayed true to my self and the values I want to be a role model for. I guess, we all have something other people will never understand, but instead of following their imagination of yourself, believe in your values, fight for your dreams and show everyone that you can make it NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY!! <3
2. the struggle with EATING DISORDERS and how to overcome the cyrcle:
As you might know already, I dealt with anorexia, bulimia, binge eating in a combination with an unhealthy sport addiction, toxic food restrictions and the fear of eating processed food. I filmed a 15 minutes video in relation to these topics, even though I could defiantly talk about it for months. There is so much I have to say about this topic, that I don´t even really know where to start. If you are interested in it or made experiences yourself, I would prefer to start a huge conversation where we can intercharge our exeriences and advices on how to escape that cyrcle. If you are more interested in how I dealt with it and how I found out how to heal myself from it, feel free to ask me. You can be sure, I will try everything to give you the courage and strength to allow yourself to let go. Believe me, I also thought FOR YEARS it is impossible, BUT IT IS POSSIBLE and once you really want to change, you will change! As simple as it might sound, but you can overcome an eating disorder by learning how to deal with it and how to trigger yourself to not fall back into it. It will take time and especially at the beginning, you will fall back into old habbit sometimes, but with time, you will see that the distances between every fall-back will get longer and longer and believe me, the time is so worth it, because with every months you fight for your health, you will become more free and happy than ever before! So if you want start this journey, I will support and help you, if you let me.
3. the importance of HEALTHY FOOD and an ACTIVE LIFE:
For me, all the four topics I mentioned are important for becoming a healthy, happy and strong person. So it is for sure absolutely necessary to have an eye on the things we open our mouth for. If you are asking yourself now how does this fit together without falling back into toxic food restrictions? The answer is: education. Learn something about nutrition and food, because then you will have a reason for eating better and being a more active person. It will all come naturally to you, because you see how good it is for your mind, body and soul and then once you started to eat better you will feel better so quick and then you go! Am I eating my birthday cake, pizza or ice cream during summer? OF CORSE! I AM A HUMAN BEING and BALANCE IS THE KEY for everything in life! Don´t restrict anything you really like, but start to use your brain when it comes to your daily food intake or meal preperation. It is a good reminder to aks yourself: "Is this meal nutriting my body, mind AND SOUL? If yes, go for it, if not, check what you could change to create a more healthy but still SUPER DELICIOUS, SOUL-SATISFIEING and FULLFILLING MEAL! Because, counting calories my darling, is so old fashioned and not necessary at all any more. If you are interested in breakfast, lunch, dinner or yammy snack meals, let me know, because I can cook some really nice food, with all the nutritions our body needs and I would love to show you some of them ! <3
4. SPIRITUAL EDUCATION and SELF CARE:
Last but not least, I want to talk a bit about the importance of spiritual awarness and education, no matter if you believe in god or not. For my well-being, I found out that it is so facilitative and refreshing to believe in something "bigger", that everything will fall into path and that we can only manage a small part compared to this whole universe. To be honest, I started praying daily this year in april, because I was so desperated during the time I stuck in the house on the texican farm, not knowing how I will ever make any money with my passions after I spend everything for Los Angeles to realize my dreams with SI and acting there and then covid kicked in and I had to spend my last 2000 dollars for my back-to-germany-ticket...And what can I say? Since I started praying it feels like I am coming closer and closer to my inner self and suddenly I am able to see everything I want so crystal clear that I do not want to stop praying even though I am feeling so much stronger and better already. I think it is so important to take a break during the day, no matter if it is in the morning, afternoon or evening, to meditate, pray or simply do something ONLY FOR YOURSELF. Otherwise, at least that is what I experienced in our crazy and super fast 21 century, you start to slowly lose the connection to your inner self and with this process you will finally end up not knowing anymore who you are, what you want and who you wanna be. And that is the point, where the whole depression, unhappy cyrcle of life can start over and over again and that is what we do not want anymore! NEVER EVER AGAIN! So darling, it is not selfish, it is necessary to take care and time for yourself if you want to be happy and 100% aware and present during your day. I know you are a superoman already and therefore, please promise me to look after yourself before you are that bad ass boss babe which I know you are every single day!
ps: the make-up artist covered my scar with camouflage? on my picture below, but I don´t have the one without it, so I hope that is okay.
I love you so much and I am grateful for your time<3
with so much love and hope as always,
Jen <3